beautiful lies

2009-05-09T14:33:00.005+08:00

THAT BOY IS 2 FUCKING YEARS YOUNGER THAN US!!

2009-04-16T13:28:00.002+08:00

And oh!

Someone's being a bitch right around 24hours ago.

Confused, Crappier and all by days.

No offence though (:

Elizabeth! Hurry.

Tong Seng is waiting for me!

woo woo woo`

2009-04-16T13:00:00.003+08:00

I'M BACK BABY!

Powerhouse was hectic. New friends found.

Woots Woots`

And getting drunk is besides the point.

okay, that's all.

BabyBoy,

you know i do feel the same way.

but i just want you to know that perhaps now is not the time.

wait a little longer then maybe the magic will happen.

And about me being Peter Parker's replacement,

no, it's not true.

I don't even know when this replacement start.

Me and Peter Parker are friends. Normal ones.

Whatever feeling he's having, it's none of my business.

After so long of not updating, i have no idea on what to write.

heh!

Kental, yes.

Just bare with me (:

Adios!

2009-03-17T21:29:00.003+08:00

DASAR PERANGAI SUNDAL!

SUKE NAH MENYUSAHKAN HIDUP ORANG.

Sweet Revenge.

After tomorrow I can finally say,

"Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge!"

Ape lagi, besok enjoy uh!

PARTAY PARTAY!~

2009-03-15T21:17:00.004+08:00

Life sure is unpredictable. You'll never know what's next for you.

And when you finally know it, it took you by storm.

Praying and hoping things won't get any worst than that.

Only to realise, it's pointless to even think it won't happen.

I've caught the pyrexia(fever) bug.

As I'm lying here on my bed, I'm thinking how my life have been this year.

Apart from being independent, I've met wonderful people.

Mesmerizing those moment, I miss them. So much.

And it's hard for me to actually go up straight to them and tell them just how much I miss having them by my side.

Even if I could, I wouldn't dare.

Cause I'm just a coward human being.

I wish i could mend my ways and be with them but it's impossible now.

I'm sorry for the wrong doing. I know it wasn't fair for you three.

But if you were to give me this last chance, i'll take it and replace those lost all this while.

You three were magnificent in your own ways and I doubt i could ever find people like you again.

J, A & F.

I miss you all!

From the bottom of my heart I'm saying this.

Forgive me.

2009-02-28T11:00:00.001+08:00

I got a confession.

i'm in love with two.

HELP?

2009-02-28T10:34:00.003+08:00

Dear J,

you're a wonderful guy. i swear to that. my perception of you change the moment we got close.

i thought you were the type who go around toying with girls heart.

instead you showed me the opposite side of it. i know deep inside your heart you're seeking for happiness in love.

those time we spend, it was awesome.

well, you sure know how to make a girl feels right at home aren't you?

i thank you for the time and effort you put in for me.

but somehow, you're not the guy i thought you were now.

it's back to square one. the guy who dates a lot of girls at one go and breaks their heart before having another batch of girls.

well, your pick-up lines do work on me afterall, Mr P.

congrats!

p.s : you do not call all the girls you're dating MJ my dear. it's just inappropriate.

2009-02-25T09:24:00.003+08:00

FUCK THIS SHITS!

I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!

I just wanna break down right now.

2009-02-04T21:48:00.006+08:00

Slowly, bit by bit my life is forming into a prefect one. A great job, bringing home approximately a few grand home. Friends that support me and advising me in whatever possible way i need to be advised on. Family who hasn't be a pain in the neck. But either way, I still think things can yet to be improved. A little bit here and there. Well, life isn't suppose to be perfect and no matter how hard to try make it perfect, your attempt will eventually fail you. So the best thing to do is to actually make it better and worthwhile. I've been in and out of love for some particular reason and for a girl like me, love or finding a man in life doesn't really do much different to my life. but somehow there's something about him that got me all wondered. What does love really mean in my life? Love from a man, is it necessary in my life? I need to know the answer. cause somehow it's killing me when you're on my mind.

I'll just keep you on my mind for now.

2009-01-08T22:06:00.005+08:00

Tonnes of stuffs are running through my mind. And i don't even know where to start. Life hasn't been that wonderful these days. I told myself to be strong. Everyone says "Hafa, you're a very strong and independent girl. You'll make it through this setbacks. Dont you worry."

Yes, i am aware of that as i tend to bottle everything up and refuse to tell a single soul about it. But i wonder, how long can i keep this up?

Knowing i can confide in everyone around me, but yet i still think i'll be troubling them with my problems. That's the reason why i always keep myself away from others.

2009-01-06T14:59:00.002+08:00

will be updating real soon!!

2008-11-06T21:19:00.006+08:00

CONGRATULATION Geylang United U-18

you guys have made it this far.

it's the final now for you guys .

make the coach proud!

ALL THE BEST!!

to my Captain,

i'm proud of you baby.

seeing you out there playing was one of my proud moments.

you did awesome yesterday.

keep up the good job captain.

i love you!

oh ya, congrats to Balack Obama for winning the election.

and that is the first Black-American President.

salute to you dude!

2008-11-01T22:37:00.002+08:00

love overcomes everything and anything in the world.

is that even true? i myself wonder.

i try to think life is a fairytale.

where miracles and happily ever after will take place.

but is there such thing as fairytales in this chaotic world?

to ♥ ,

i hope you understand that time now isnt like how it was 2 years ago.

where we walk together with smiles & love at heart.

things are different and unexpected nowadays.

we would argue about the slightest things or just getting mad at each other out of random.

we're both an adult and at this age, it's where serious things come in place.

we both are ready for commitment but how long can we keep it up?

"i see you whenever i see other girls."

it touched my heart. but why are we still having this arguement everyday?

you weren't there half the time when i need you.

but i'm always here when you needed me to.

i don't want us to be the same as the other couples out there.

at the same time, i want you to be just like the other boyfriends.

bring me to places i never been to.

bought me flowers on any other random days.

surprise me with gifts.

or even buy things that i've been eyeing for without asking me what i want.

nevertheless, i still love you. for who you are now and forever.

but one thing, would you take care of me if i'm sick?

put aside soccer just to be by my side before i leave this world?

would you?

that's the only question i want you to answer.

2008-10-12T01:01:00.002+08:00

me : ever be at 2 places at one time?

bf : pernah! okay bedek. tak. asal?

me : tak, hafitz told me die nye kawan pernah bwk matair at this place. one leg at tampines, another at pasir ris. sweet kan?

bf : sweet?! otak kau! merepek sak.

me : i wish my bf would do that for me!

bf : pergi la kau sorang. aku takde kuase sak!

romantic kan matair aku ni?!

macam nak rembat je kepale die.

"bertuah" sei ade matair mcm die.

as we grew older, raye has been different.

there's no more excitement to it.

of course we got to see relatives that we've been longing to see, but it just feels different.

and to add to it, i'll be giving packets starting from next year.

haha. dah tue kan hafa? ish!

2008-09-30T19:15:00.002+08:00

kedengaran takbir membuat air mataku mangalih.

aku teringat datuk aku yang sudah lama meninggal kan kami.

Tok Busu, Hafa sayang dan rindu Atok.

:'(

menjelang hari raya ini.

Hafa ingin mengucap semua Selamat Hari Raya.

maafkan Hafa kalau Hafa ada tersilap atau terkasar bahase.

Hafa harap korang semua dapat maafkan Hafa.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!

2008-09-24T00:27:00.004+08:00

my soul is lost.

my mind is empty.

my heart is wrecked into peices.

my body is weak.

i just don't know myself no more.

i'm completely someone i'm not.

i'm fighting for my life right now.

i'm competing with my own self.

someone wake me up from this nightmare.

cause somehow, i don't wanna live anymore.

2008-09-17T23:48:00.002+08:00

ITS JUST A MATTER OF TIME.

tell me straight to the face you don't need me anymore as a friend.

tell me straight to the face you no longer trust me.

from the top 3 to the bottom 3.

you might not be showing it, but it's clear to see.

too clear that others notice it too.

no more going town together.

no more slacking at the void deck.

no more frequent visit to your house.

it's just no longer there.

it's sad knowing you're there physically but not mentally.

it hurts knowing what the past has done to us.

just thinking back, we shouldn't have start what we had.

i know we're done with this blog thingy.

i'll talk to you about this one day.

just wait till i have the courage to do so.

2008-09-15T17:52:00.007+08:00

this is kind of a late entry.

but hey, at least i got myself occupied.

this little dude here pays my grandparent a little visit last saturday.

his name is Nur Hakimi.

he's 2 this year and all he could say is bapak, bank, bye and ibu.

me being at home, i spend the time waiting for buke playing balls with him.

he won't go anywhere without the dad.

he's just the cutest little thing ever!

oh ya! my brother just got himself a Nintendo WII!

guess i know what i'm gonna do if i'm really bored at home!

2008-09-13T23:07:00.004+08:00

i am officially broke people!

tell me, what do you do when you're broke?

i mean really really broke.

i got about 2 weeks more till payday.

i've yet to get my baju raye.

Farhan is worried that i won't be able to find the baju that i want in time.

don't worry.

a girl must do what a girl must do in such situation.

"oh wait, what must i do?" -.-"

this is a serious business.

i was at home on a Saturday!

i'm not sure if that's suppose to be a good thing or bad.

but hey, i manage through the day with NO complaints!

YAY me!! (:

okay, that's all.

i've been staring at this screen for a whole good 5 minutes, squeezing as many juice brain.

i'm blank.

and now, i'm going with Archie's in my hands.

woopeedoo!!

2008-09-12T00:54:00.015+08:00

the last day of school

goodbye ITE CE, goodbye Nasi Ayan Thousand Island, goodbye mannequin & goodbye school life!

but HELLO work life!

in 3 month times, i'm officially out of school.

that means, I'M GRADUATING!

2 years of endless bugging from teachers, obeying school rules & studying.

finally, it's time to bid adieu.

graduation was suppose to be a sad thing in life but when you're in nursing, it's a dream come true.

well, at least for me.

i am somehow happy to be out of the school.

but again, im gonna miss people there.

the laughter we shared & all will now only be memories in my heart.

kalau nampak kat luar, jangan sombong oi!

oh ya! i'm still waiting to turn 18 which is taking forever!

and yes, this is a random entry.

i'm trying to sleep but i can't.

but anyways, i went to ebay to search for camera and i saw this.

SAMSUNG CAMERA L100 8.2 MEGAPIXELS Face Detection

it's going off at $239.

tell me, it is worth getting?

2008-09-11T01:08:00.003+08:00

boyfriend for sale!

letting it go at a very low price!

Farhan is beginning to be irritating nowadays.

usually i'm rhe one who always picking/start the fight.

but somehow, he overtook me this time round.

macam nak sampiong die je!

irritating faggot!

nevertheless, i still love you!

why?

2008-09-10T21:08:00.003+08:00

WHY CAN'T WE BE LIKE LAST TIME?

after what has happened, somehow i feel unwanted by you.

tell me if it's true.

i hope things between you & her will be for eternity.

i want to talk to you about this. but i don't have the courage to.

i'm sorry.

final paper

2008-09-09T13:01:00.003+08:00

time check : 1.01pm

today is the final paper for the course.

wish me luck!

trust me, it's no different from yesterday's.

hafa kental!

2008-09-08T22:51:00.002+08:00

i got a lot to write but i just don't know where to start.

there's so much going on through my mind.

for a start, there's exams.

exams are major headache.

if i ever pass the paper just now, it's all by luck.

when i sat for the paper, i concentrate more on leaving the hall fast rather than finishing the paper.

now tell me, how the hell am i suppose to score well?

another thing is fasting.

i'm getting tired of fasting.

i know. i'm being very bad about it.

i feel dead sia living through the day without food & drink.

call me kental or what so ever. but i just can't take it.

i don't know if i'm suffering from any syndrome or what.

but nowadays, i have quite constant mood swings.

i can feel elated for no reason & the next thing you know, i'll be throwing some tantrum.

sometimes it sucks being me.

and if you can see through my post today, i'm feeling all sad and emotional.

god knows about what.

dah giler aku rase!

why is it that money always seem to be the problem?

well, can't blame anyone for that.

who ask me not to save money?

now there's a whole lot of stuff to buy for hari raya.

current saving in bank:

$1 plus.

-.-"

time fly

2008-09-07T13:37:00.002+08:00

a week has passed.

that only means two things:

3 more weeks to HARI RAYA.
final exams is here!!

damn! i swear time passes so fast.

and before you know it, i've graduated from school!

hahahah.

anyways. during this one week of fasting, i manage to endure the hunger and thirst despite the sore throat.

(i suck at fasting for your info)

i'm proud of myself. *dancing in circle*

and i've been such a good girl that i stayed at home for break fast.

except for yesterday.

the initial plans was me & Fyera to break fast at Popeye's @ Airport.

but due to the overwhelming people there, we settled for Nasi Ayam Penyet @ Kopitiam disappointedly.

we then rushed to Suntec to meet up Hafitz aka Bob to watch the Suntec Dance Competition thingy.

knowing me & Miss Fyera, our rush is the same as taking our own sweet time.

we reached there almost 9, whereas we're suppose to meet Hykell & Ifah at 8.30pm @ Bugis for shisha session.

i know, we're such a darling :D

once we stepped into Al-Majlis, there's food, drink & of course shisha waiting for us.

sat, talked, laughed & was later joined by Hafitz & Fareez.

oh ya. we girls got a free drink for the the next table.

sorry but the pictures are with Cik Fyera kiter tu.

SELAMAT BERPUASA SEMUA!

dark cold boring saturday

2008-08-23T12:46:00.003+08:00

it's one hell of a boring saturday.

all plans are being cancelled & i'm stuck at home.

pray hard my brother will come to my rescue.

oh ya.

maybe the above doesn't want us to me happy together.

that explains the setbacks perhaps.

the note

2008-08-17T13:10:00.006+08:00

this was given to me by my little niece.

she was in the room when i was looking at my blog.

she ran out from the room & came back within a few minutes with the note.

translation : "you love your boyfriend. and the your gambar."

she saw my pictures with Farhan.

shes only 6 mind you.

she once told me that she have a boyfriend.

and thats is her own cousin.

isnt she the cutest?

kids nowadays.

haha.

trust

2008-08-11T18:28:00.003+08:00

In life, you can't trust anyone. Not even someone closest to you.

Lesson learned.

happy birthday dear country.

2008-08-10T01:17:00.010+08:00

town, marina sq & arab street.

the pictures will do the talking for today's outing.

have fun looking.

oh ya!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!

life

2008-07-22T22:08:00.004+08:00

i'm pretty much aware that life isnt as beautiful as it seems .

and i myself do know that things don't really go the way we always wanted .

but having a very cloudy dark life plus things never really go the way i want it ,

isnt that too much for a girl to handle ?

i sure can relate my life with Singapore .

sometimes it shine like theres no tomorrow & the next day , its raining cats & dogs .

baby ,

things always come in our way .

i can see that ure always trying so hard to block theses things from breaking us up .

but i blew it the moment i let it all in .

i was my fault .

now , things are going back in place slowly .

u need not compete with him no more .

uve got what u deserved .

but somehow , theres still obstacles for me to face right now & yet to get what that had been set for me .

i swear , i dont know what else to do .

i fear of what ur friends might think .

afterall , they only heard one side of story .

i thank god that u opened ur heart to me despite the setbacks that happened .

keep on showering me ur love .

cause i know i'll do the same thing back to u .

just give me time .

insya allah , we'll be back together .

only time will tell .

friend ,

im sorry for all the hurt ive caused u .

from the day i read it , i go on with life with regrets .

yes i laugh , i smile .

but that doesnt mean i didnt realize my mistakes .

u have all the rights to be mad at me for the rest of ur life .

i dont mind .

im truly sincerely sorry .

but have u ever thought of the reason why i did that ?

obviously , i was mad .

try asking me . u'll know .

i swear i didnt want to face u at all .

but no matter what i cant run away from u .

u might hate me but remember , i love you .

as promised , i'll always be here for u .

& i'll be waiting for the day we become close again .

i'm truly apologies .

dear ,

now u know how my life is like .

im sorry i didnt give u the chance to know me more .

& i hope this blog have given u a rough idea abt it .

trust me , u'll know more in the future .

i thank god ive met someone like u .

like ive said , ure a great guy .

somehow , we grew closer now .

im happy for that .

thank you for all ur time texting me .

much appreciated (:

risks .

2008-07-19T11:34:00.004+08:00

this is what i found out .

life is all about taking risks .

i took the risk of doing something i didnt like .

i took the risk of going even deeper into what i didnt like .

i took the risk of stepping back from my love life .

i took the risk of in every possible way i could .

i didnt care what life brings me .

as time passes , im beginning to regret what i did .

i shouldnt have did Nursing .

i shouldnt have sign on bond with SGH .

i shouldnt have broke up with An .

& i should have treat my friends better cause i know they deserve better than this .

but in life there are advantages & disadvantages when it comes to taking risks .

so dont worry .

risks arent that bad as it seems .

whats life with no friends ?

ive always told myself that i got no friends .

but hey , some came right in time for me .

i appreciate that .

& i know ive not been great with you all .

im sorry . i really am .

if u guys could give me this one last chance to make it right .

i swear , i'll be a great help to ur life .

please .

just this one last chance .

i love you all !

crazy b*tch

2008-06-17T02:04:00.006+08:00

i'm feeling the worst right now .

i wanna sleep but i can't .

i wanna stay awake , but my eyes can't open .

tell me if i'm crazy or what .

it's 2 am in the morning .

in one hour time , my sister will end her shift .

i know it got nothing to do with me but heck care .

i need money .

i can't live without money .

money makes me happy just like how sweets makes little kids happy .

with money , i can achieve anything .

& money makes the world a better place to leave in for everyone .

well , no biggie .

8 more days to pay day .

okay , i shall stop this .

& start fantasizing about Pharell Williams right about now .

he's totally hot !

goodnight !

♥

saturday night out

2008-06-15T02:47:00.000+08:00

what could be more fun than spending your saturday with your two best girls .

well , even if we met up quite late that day ,

we had fun just spending the night together with a bunch of others too .

the night become a drag when Siti Nuridahwati (the right one) had to make her way home .

leaving me & Nur Elfira wondering in Orchard Rd with nowhere to go .

sitting at the fountain in front of Taka , we spotted quite a lot of people .

err . lemme see .

there's Shahril , Shasha , Afad , Rahman .

err . that's about all that i can remember.

we did spend a lot of time laughing our ass out for nothing .

the night went perfectly fine eventhough we were bored .

Hafa pretended to be sick for some reason & end up getting real sick when we actually board the cab .

yup .

we both vomited after dropping off at our stops .

stupid crazy cab driver .

okay afterall , it was a decent night-out .

the holidays are here & i bet there's gonna be more of those nights coming soon !

♥

love albums

2008-06-12T21:57:00.008+08:00

as i flipped through the pages on friendster , i come across my beloved friends photo album .

one common thing found there , the ❤ LOVE album .

each & every single one of them are indeed truly happy with their own love life .

my babies , i'm really happy for you girls .

Elfira , Adawiyah , Sifah .

& as for myself , i'm still trying to work things out .

i'm not so sure of what i want in him .

i love him , yes i do .

i figured it's never enough for him to tell me he love me endlessly .

somehow , i'm still having doubts .

about what , i never knew .

that trigger the fights every single day .

i thank god for him .

he's one of the kind . someone i never knew i'll ever get to know .

what we share is indeed magnificent .

the memories are too wonderful .

a beautiful love .

i just love you .

now hush baby .

after shedding tears for a whole good 5 mins ,

i feel so much better .

plus talking to Fadhzuli on MSN about how i'm feeling .

thanks . and i'm really sorry if i hurt you .

thank you so much for the listening ears eventhough you were being too straight-forward .

nevertheless , i appreciate you for being there for me .

you're been missed .

say you'll meet me up soon please .

ok ?

love

2008-06-07T22:34:00.003+08:00

Love is when you tell a boy you like his shirt ,

& he wears it every single day .

now , thats love baby .

israh humairah

2008-06-07T14:21:00.006+08:00

aww . thats my baby .

israh humairah .

she's all grown now .

people can no longer decide what she's wearing anymore .

going out is a must for her to wear lipgloss .

for heaven sake's , she's 6 this year .

but sadly , shes leading 2 different lives .

a life with the grandparent where everything is restricted

& a life with the parents where they shower her with everything she wants .

back when she was just a kiddo , she love staying with us .

& staying with the parents was never an option .

but now , she'll die to sleep over at her parent's .

it's sad knowing that she now hates staying with us .

i saw her grow up right in front of my eyes .

& i fear i wont be able to see it anymore .

& i fear that she'll lead the life like mine before i could tell her whats right & not .

i want to be there for her .

you guys should really consider watching this movie .

it can bring you laughter & tears at the same time .

imagine searching for love at 40 .

& looking oh-so-fab at 50 .

you'll love it .

i give this movie 4 out of 5 popcorns !

hahah .

rumours they are

2008-05-29T23:19:00.002+08:00

i was having a very nice conversation with Darling Ad & Fahmy when she suddenly asked me ,

" Syg , did u pass ur numbers to anyone ? "

i was like " huh ?! who ?! no ! "

according to Ad , someone's spreading rumours about me passing my numbers around .

well , it doesnt really matter if you guys out there are saying things about me .

i dont mind . i'm not perfect .

but dont you think it would be so much better if you were to just say it to my face .

i mean , i do take criticism well you know .

hahah !

no matter how you say things about me , i'm still me .

NoorHafawati .

its not as if you guys really make a different in my life except for making me popular in a bad way la .

k , thats besides the point .

spread all you want . i'll still be there to clarify things with whoever is asking me for the truth .

*cheese*

call me a bitch , a whore , a slut . whatever you want .

i'd rather be listening to all that , rather than get myself into trouble for fighting .

hahaha .

rumours are rumours .

i doubt so they are allowed to enter your grave later on .

so yeah .

happy spreading people .

i'm all ears .

hahaha .

♥

to you .

2008-05-20T10:42:00.001+08:00

just in case youre reading this Muhd Farhan ,

IM WASHING MY HANDS OF YOU !

you do whatever you want la .

okay ?

long weekend , Vesak Day

2008-05-19T14:36:00.002+08:00

Happy Vesak Day !

well , more to Happy Public Holiday . hahah .

okay so i had a long weekend .

my Saturday was full of laughter .

my Sunday was full on butt numbs .

& my Monday is full of stomach cramps .

a long weekend indeed aint it ? hahah .

Saturday , i went over to Tampines to watch An's game .

& yes , he guessed it . Geylang won .

thanks to Haziq for that wonderful shot .

bump into Yan Tonggek who stop by just to be back in time to the workplace to end work .

clever thinking , i must say .

met up with Khalysa too .

girl , pardon me . im not sure on how your name is spelled . hahah .

Sunday , i was awaken at 7.30 in the damn morning .

had to go Johor for someone's wedding .

my mom's distance cousin i think .

okay whatever .

it was boring . cause its my family only .

so , after that we went over my granny's place .

left the place at 10pm .

im telling you , s'pore security is damn tight .

its quite irritating though . that explains the long jam before entering Johor .

sheesh !

Monday , here i am sitting & typing this entry .

waiting for An to wake up so i can meet him .

despite the cramps & stuff .

i think i really should be showering right now .

or sleep .

okay , sleeping sounds better . hahah .

toodles everyone .

♥

graveyard shift

2008-05-16T14:13:00.008+08:00

oh wow .

i manage through the night .

i made it . haha .

night shift was hectic .

one after another call bells , the patient wont give you a break .

one ask for bedpan , all ask for bedpan .

and theres like 2 juniors working within 4 rooms .

so , by 3 , we went crazy .

i dont know how those nurses manage to survive the night alone doing junior work .

sheesh .

i was half dead !

but overall , base on experience it was alright .

im a sucker for sleep , so i was having quite a hard time keeping myself awake .

the moment i see the morning shift people , god knows how happy i am .

so yup . that's all about my night shift .

oh no . there aint any ghost or strange things happening for your info . (:

♥

how i feel about you .

2008-05-15T10:19:00.010+08:00

dang .

its been forever since i last blog .

haha .

too caught up with attachment till i got no time for myself .

okay , tu bedek .

anyways , im pretty much getting the hang of this attachment .

but still , i miss school .

once school's reopen , i bet things will be real different .

i doubt im ever gonna have much fun as it did last time .

like poeple say , "time passes , people change "

and no , im not pointing any fingers .

it depends on individual to be frank .

to that somebody ,

life isnt a fairytale .

even if it was , i doubt so Enid Blyton is gonna like you for making fairytales sound so selfish .

yes , youve found the love of your life .

yes , you love him so much .

but do you ever think i deserve to be thrown to the side like this ?

to you im being childish .

but listen to my side now .

i love you . very much .

and if you can juggle love & friendship last time , why cant you do it now ?

i havent heard from you for ages .

we do text , text about minor things .

its no longer the gossips no more .

remember youd always called me up in the middle of the day/night ?

asking what im doing & you needed someone to talk to .

i put aside my bf just to spare time for you .

and now i feel like its difficult for me to call you up just to ask you how youre doing .

you used to be first one i turn to whenever misery strike me .

but you make it hard for me to continue doing it .

i feared that youll get mad .

things between are very different now .

spare a thought for me . cause ive always spared mine for you .

okay so im on night today .

havent been sleeping last night .

sleepy ? no .

tired ? yes .

i dont know if i can ever make it through the night .

wish me the best for tonight .

♥

mayday

2008-05-01T23:07:00.003+08:00

Happy MayDay people !

im always waking up early on the weekends & PH .

i dont know why sia .

no matter how hard i try to sleep back ,

i'll eventually be fully awake before 12 .

& i hate that !

well , my day was tiring .

lots of walking .

went over to bugis alone to grab some things .

walk around the damn thing to find an ATM that can withdraw $20 .

bought the necessary stuff ,

& off to Cityhall .

have to walk all the way to Marina .

tiring okay ?

sheesh .

met up with my baby & the budak budak Geylang .

sat at the stairs .

some went off to Esplanade to find chicks .

-_- .

while some followed me & boyfriend to grab some food .

they finally gather back at KFC .

since we were planless ,

we walked aimlessly till someone said ,

"Clarke Quay pe ?"

met one of them at Home Club .

we walked mind you !

from Marina to Esplanade to Boat Quay & finally Clarke Quay .

we sat opposite the reverse bungee thingy .

well , its me & boyfriend only .

the rest go on the search for chicks .

-_-"

all are one hella sick people !

they gather back again at the place where me & boyfriend were sitting .

talk2 , crap2 .

then off back home .

well , we walked alot sia !!

urrghh !

tiring .

okay , wanna sleep .

heh !

toodles .

♥

politics , money

2008-05-01T00:14:00.003+08:00

it has been only one week working in the ward ,

& ive seen loads of politics happening in the ward among the nurses .

its so clear to see that the nurses there dont really appreciate student nurses .

anything wrong that happens in the ward ,

we're to blame eventhough we didnt know whats happening .

give us a break .

we didnt choose to be posted to the ward ,

just like you guys doesnt want us to be there .

we'll be there for only 4 weeks .

bear with us .

anyways ,

went to watch Geylang U-18 & NFA U-17 match .

im not so sure about the scoring cause i dont bother to find out either .

but NFA were really rough .

damn !

but i gotta agree with the ex-coach ,

Geylang's getting better .

cheers for Geylang U-18 .

& baby , you played well .

im proud of you .

muachs .

i got loads of stuff to buy .

but money all gone in a blink of an eye .

sheesh .

1. DigiCam .

2. Ipod TOuch .

3. contact lens .

4. more tops .

5. jeans .

& more to come .

anyone care to treat me to all this stuff ?

please .

still got the plane tix to Bangkok trip to pay .

& oh ,

im planning to change phonee .

heheh .

any good phone to recommend ?

♥

saturday & sunday

2008-04-27T20:51:00.006+08:00

my Saturday .

met up with my Darling Ifah & Parveen .

we headed to Bugis .

bump into Syam Mambo !

hahah .

we didn

t do much at Bugis though .

bought myself shorts from Bugis Village & a top fro

m Topshop .

& i swear Ifah

has gone " dress nuts " .

she bought 3 dresses ehk .

sheesh !

ouh ya .

met up with Wan too .

too bad we couldnt talk ehk ,

hahah .

Wan , shut up ehk .

dont laugh when u read this !

hahaha !

and as for my Sunday .

i met up with Darling Ifah again .

slack with her till her boyfriend came .

& we sure talk alot sia .

dah lamer tak lepak katekan .

hahah .

after that went over to boyfriend's place .

& off to downtown .

makan Sushi .

wheee`

kenyang nak mampos !

fuuuh !

& now i'm here in my room typing this thing .

yups .

that's all !

♥

what more ?

2008-04-25T22:43:00.004+08:00

Goodbye dear IMH .

Hello sucky SGH .

i'm getting fatter now .

& that suck .

any idea how to tone down this fats on my waist ?

damn !

& oh !

have i mentioned ,

ATTACHMENT SUCK !

okay .

i think i suck right now .

hahah !

i'm tired of working .

i'm tired of shifts .

i'm tired of sleeping early .

i'm tired of waking up early .

but .

i'm looking forward to night shift .

i'm looking forward to SD ( sleeping day ) .

i'm looking forward to all the weekends .

i'm looking forward to laughing at the Nursing new uniform .

hahahah !

$700 .

minus $250 .

minus $60 .

minus $40 .

i'm left with $200+ .

now that's a major SUCKINESS !

Dear Money ,

please come to me fast .

i need you .

♥

lazy .

2008-04-23T21:21:00.007+08:00

Firstly ,

i'm too lazy to update my blog .

so pardon me .

Secondly ,

attachment suck !

Thirdly ,

i cant stop thinking about Bermuda Triangle .

i know .

-_-''

Lastly ,

i miss Nur Elfira Md Salleh .

♥

today , yesterday & tomorrow .

2008-04-12T22:44:00.003+08:00

today
The Fast & The Furious: Tokyo Drift just ended on HBO .
one word to describe it ,
POWERFUL .
hah .
call me crazy but the movie inspired me to be a Drifter !
hahah .
if only s'pore allow such race ,
i'll be the most famous female drifter .
hahah .
k lame whatever !
hahaha .
so , i spend the whole day at home .
woke up at 12 & woke boyfriend up for his game .
continue sleeping back & finally woke up at 1.30 .
as you guessed it ,
the moment i woke up ,
i was findin for food .
stuff myself .
& yes , went back to sleep .
im so gonna be fat .
like Fadhzuli say ,
Hafa the Fat Nurse !
ouh shut up boy !
ouhya !
boyfriend broke his promise .
hes suppose to meet me but he bailed on it .
hais .

yesterday
Friday was suppose to be a day to Sentosa with boyfriend .
yes , you guessed it .
HE BAILED ON IT AGAIN !
damn him .
but he did make it up to me .
we went town for a movie treat .
been a long time .
haha .
i was late , as usual .
meeting time : 4.30pm .
time Hafa reached : 5.30pm .
hahah .
was shock to find Adly at the platform .
been a very long time since i saw you , panjang !
hahah .
yes , i miss you .
hoho .
can you imagine fighting with your boyfriend in the middle of Orchard Rd ?!
omg !
he started it first .
he knows how much i hated Cineleisure .
still got the cheek to ask me to walk2 there .
yes , we watched movie there .
& i swear i walked real fast up & down that place .
after movie ,
went to Parkview Pri / Coralite's reunion .
i finally got to meet Syierah !
yay !
hehehe .
ouh ya .
not to forget ,
Luqman , Idham , Muhaimin & Shaik .
you guys are much much missed .
i get to catch up with Ifah too .
she got a pit there .
i miss you so so much shorty !
muachss .
heh !
went home ard 1am .
the end .

tomorrow
will be meeting boyfriend .
haha .
yay !
i dont know why but i got excited everytime im gonna meet him .
hehe .
just hope he wont bail out on it again .
i love you .
muachss .
♥

i miss you

2008-04-12T14:30:00.002+08:00

I MISS MY BOYFRIEND !!
♥

hes not the typical boyfriend .

2008-04-11T15:39:00.002+08:00

friendster , MSN , blog .
my normal routine .
while waiting for dearest boyfriend ,
i decided to blog hopping .
& found myself in Erma's LJ .
it's funny seeing other people being so much in love ,
& me being happy about it .
but what is actually happening to me ?
yes , i do love my boyfriend .
no doubt about that .
but my boyfriend aint like any other boyfriend .
he dont msg me in the middle of the day saying "i love you" .
he dont surprise me with gift .
(maybe because it always slip out of his mouth )
he dont plan romantic date .
& he wouldnt even take a day off from soccer training to spend time with me .
unless he's being forced to .
its always me who do the msg-ing first .
im always buying his stuff .
sweater , shoes , you name it .
& im always the one asking him if he wants to spend time .
i dont know what else to do .
im tired of being the one to do all these stuff .
please baby ,
for once have the initiative to do all that .
but no matter how hard i try to b mad at you about this ,
my mind will eventually change to other stuff .
thinking ,
"how were you like when you were with her ?"
im still not over it .
call me whatever .
but each time i step in Cineleisure ,
my eyes turn watery .
yes , i know you & her are over .
i know youre happy with me ,
& she's happy with him .
but memories .
it's hard to erase .
maybe its my fault .
i dont blame anyone but myself .
why did i let all these happen ?

nevertheless ,
i need you start treating me like a real women .
a human being with feelings .
im sorry i hurt you .
im sorry im being unfair to you .
im truly deeply am .
but please change your way .
that's all im asking .
i love you too much .
wouldnt trade you for anything .

♥

LOVE

2008-04-10T00:08:00.003+08:00

i can finally say im the happiest girl on earth .
u'll commonly hear girls saying they have found the one ,
& end up being dump .
but trust me .
i've finally found my prince .
things are different whenever im around you baby .
you make me on cloud nine .
whenever youre beside me ,
i feel as if the whole world belongs to us .
no one & i mean no one can make me feel this way .
youre one of the kind baby .
i love you .
& wouldnt replace you for anything in this world .
muachs !

my girlfriends too have found the one .
well ,
most of them .
heh !
Fira & Yan .
Ad & Fahmy .
Titi & Ujir .
we sure are the happiest girls in the whole world !
hehe !

♥

chaos

2008-04-07T22:04:00.003+08:00

my niece is really energetic for someone who is having chicken pox .
she's been singing , jumping & screaming all day all .
haha !

4th , 5th & 6th April .
one hella of a weekend .
& i swear i never want that kind of weekend to happen again .
too chaotic for me to even say .

To Fyera Syg & Yan Tonggek
sorry if i trouble you both .
& thanks for travelling all the way from Changi to Pasir Ris .
thank you so much .
i really appreciate it .
i love you both .
big love to you both .
muachss !

To my BabyBoy
please .
keep to your promise okay ?
i trust u .
& u deserve to get scolding .
heh !
i love you baby !
& one more thing ,
please listen to me next time .
okay ?
muachss !!
i am not kental !
hahah .
MUHD FARHAN SAKIT KUAT NYE ORG !!

To Ad Darling
i miss u tau .
please meet up real soon .
i really want to see u .
k ?
muachss !

♥

my weekend

2008-04-04T18:07:00.002+08:00

urghhh !
need to get out of the house FAST !
my niece got CHICKEN POX !
& according to my mom ,
she wasnt sure if i had it before .
ler .
im beginning to feel the itch here & there .
*gulp*
lucky for me ,
i wont be going home till tmr afternoon !
hahah !
wooopeedoo `

this week ,
is like a back to back chalet for me .
first it was the Nurses' Chalet yesterday .
that was one night .
today ,
boyfriend's chalet .
heh !
anyways ,
i got chalet too next week .
according to boyfriend ,
it's Parkview Pri & Coral Sec reunion .
hah !
eventhough im not either from one ,
im still invited .
this is what happen when u got close to your bf's friends .
they invite me personally mind you .
hahahah .
kk .
Nurses' Chalet .
the food was awesome .
of course ,
cause im hungry .
that's why .
muahahah .
great to see you guys again .
hehe .
& hello FAD !!! (:
keep on reading my blog okay ?
hoho .
people that i never did talked to before ,
seems to be nice .
& those whom i assumed is nice ,
wasnt as nice as i thought they would be .
anyways .
happily listening to MISTERI JAM 12 ,
when the boys decided to go Swamp .
well ,
it was my damn stupid idiotic boyfriend's idea .
when they proceed to the Swamp ,
me & Titi went home by cabbie .
like Fad say ,
"OKL !"
orang kaya lamer !
hahaha .
ouh ya ,
Amirul came along too !
okay .
shall update soon .
toodles .

P.S : get well soon Umairah .
try not to scream when ure crying .
ure always waking me up from sleep .
hmm .

♥

family love

2008-04-02T19:21:00.002+08:00

remember those entries i wrote talking about my sister ?
the part that i hate her so much .
cause shes forever making my life miserable .
its like she loves doing that lar !
okay okay .
im not posting this entry to discriminate my sister again .
just wanted to tell her ,
I LOVE YOU SIS !
it's great having you around the house nowadays .
& the fact that im seeing your face the first thing i woke up .
heh !
thank you for doing the dishes eventhough mom asked me to .
& yes , thanks for talking to me abt your work life .
i really feel the bonding ya know .
& i think i can finally have the type of sister that id always wanted .
ouh well ,
i played a part to you know .
i hardly go out of the house nowadays .
& even if i did ,
i'll definitely be back by 10 .
mommy is beginning to trust me .
guess shes happy to see her daughters doing housechores early in the morning .
& I'M HAPPY FOR SURE TO HAVE SUCH FAMILY !
hehe !
BIG BIG LOVE to my family .
muachs .
♥

stupid blog

2008-04-02T03:50:00.001+08:00

suddenly ,
i feel that my blog is getting crappier & crappier each day .
ahahah .
ouh well .
hope u guys like my short fairytale there .
hahah .
x)

my boyfriend

2008-03-31T00:28:00.005+08:00

i ❤ my boyfriend !

Popeye & Carl's Jr are off my craving list !
ahahha .
next ,
Arnold's & Fish&co .
hehe !
♥

im proud of myself

2008-03-27T22:11:00.001+08:00

i'm sorry .
sorry that i got mad at you .
i'm sorry i was being a freaking bitch .
it just irritate me knowing that you're there ,
but at the same time not being here ,
when i needed you .
i know it was stupid of me to actually scream at you when you just woke up .
but all i asked you was to skip your training for just one day ,
&& spend time with me .
yes , i'm aware of your goals & dreams .
but asking you for just one day ,
is it that hard ?
i've been too understanding on this .
&& after all that ,
you treat me like a whore .
saying i'm with other guys .
please my dear .
if you think i'm a whore ,
i don't see the reason for us to be here together still .
you have to stop with your attitude .

so yeah .
i've been having this stupid cough for a few days .
it really irritate the shit out of me .
i can't even clear my throat without hurting myself .
believe it or not .
i stayed at home the whole day today .
haha !
i finally did it .
i was practically half dead but i pulled through .
hah !
yay for Hafa !
&& i ate $5.60 worth of sushi .
trust me .
that's my one & only meal for the day .
but yet ,
i still got this fats sticking beneath my skin !

okay ,
the sushis are sure digesting in my stomach right now .
i got to to the bathroon right away .
so yeah .
toodles .
♥

i suck .

2008-03-24T23:02:00.000+08:00

okay ,
somehow i got jealous reading people's blog .
they wrote a very very & i mean extremely long entry .
be it about relationship or family .
mann !
i tell you .
i suck at expressing my feelings .
the only way i did is through ,
yups !
you guessed it .
CRYING .
hahah .
so here i am , sitting here thinking of a topic to talk about .

5minutes pass ,
followed by 10 mins .

omg !!
i suck at this !!
guess its back to square one .
hahaah .
being me .
huahahah .

so yes !
while chillin over at Fira's place .
k here's the story .
hahah .
we were busy blog-hopping && reading people's blog .
when i stop & say ,
"it sure feels good to be a non ********"
hahah !
Fira was laughing non-stop ,
&& i think Elvy heard us .
hahaha .

another story .
i wanted to go home .
&& Fira has to go down to take some stuffs from her daddio's car .
i salam the mom & make my way out of the house .
Fira followed .
we were walking to the lift lobby .
when Fira shout ,
"aku terlupe nak pakai coli siol !!!"
i was laughing my head off sia !!
that's hilarious .
hahah .

err .
i'm rich !
so is Fira .
hahahaha .
yodelehehu !!!

♥

life

2008-03-16T00:31:00.000+08:00

ever wish you were someone else than yourself ?
leading a life of someone else ?
yes .
i do wish to lead someone else's life .
but i would never wanna be someone else than myself .
tell me ,
who doesn't wanna lead life like celebrity ?
for once ,
i do too wanna have a life like Paris Hilton .
&& i do wish my daddy is a money-maker !
money is always an issue in life .
that irritate the shit out of me .
hais .

Firdauz !
had fun during the outing .
kecoh seii kiter !
hahah !
jom jalan the whole Taka lagi !
hahaah .
an outing soon please !
heheh .
ouh ya fir !
my friend say you're cute !
hoho !

spot any similarity ?
hahah !
tag me aight ?
hoho !
♥

happy birthday babyboy .

2008-03-13T00:24:00.000+08:00

aww .
my baby finally turn 18 .
ehk ,
BIG DEAL pe ?
hahah !
anyways ,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABYBOY !
muahxx !
<33

birthday celebration with his family .
i feel so paisey sey !
haha !
ehk boy ,
takmo kerek ehk ?
just wait till my 18th birthday .
kau jage !
huahahaah !

anyways ,
holidays here baby !
time to enjoy !
oooo weee !
hahah !
now i know exactly who to spend my holidays with .
hahah !
right Fira ?

okay .
i wanna make a shoutout .
I LOVE YOU ALL !!!
Fira , Ad , Titi && semua nye lar .
k bye .
muahahaha !

♥

It's your time to fly

2008-03-10T04:19:00.000+08:00

Any moment, everything can change,
Feel the wind on your shoulder,
For a minute, all the world can wait,
Let go of your yesterday.

Can you hear it calling?
Can you feel it in your soul?
Can you trust this longing?
And take control,

Fly
Open up the part of you that wants to hide away
You can shine,
Forget about the reasons why you cant in life,
And start to try, cause it's your time,
Time to fly.

All your worries, leave them somewhere else,
Find a dream you can follow,
Reach for something, when there's nothing left,
And the world's feeling hollow.

Can you hear it calling?
Can you feel it in your soul?
Can you trust this longing?
And take control,

Fly
Open up the part of you that wants to hide away
You can shine,
Forget about the reasons why you cant in life,
And start to try, cause it's your time,
Time to fly.

And we're you're down and feel alone,
And want to run away,
Trust yourself and don't give up,
You know you better than anyone else,

Any moment, everything can change,
Feel the wind on your shoulder,
For a minute, all the world can wait,
Let go of your yesterday,

Fly
Open up the part of you that wants to hide away
You can shine,
Forget about the reasons why you cant in life,
And start to try,
Forget about the reasons why you can't in life,
And start to try, cause it's your time,
Time to fly.

Any moment, everything can change.

♥

friday , saturday && sunday

2008-03-09T15:16:00.000+08:00

today was whacked !
err .
yeah .
plan to studying ,
end up didnt study .
Ain was suppose to join ,
but she didn't .
don't wanna go Marina ,
end up at Marina .
haywire sei .
ouh ya !
we ate at Carl's Jr .
that stuff keeps my stomach full for the rest of the day .
&& i think i'm crazy for Starbucks ,
till i can't take another sip of Starbucks drink no more .
man !
am i sick && tired of it .
talking abt sick ,
guess what ?
i'm havin a freaking block nose .
&& it irritate the shit out of me !!
anyways ,
the day turn out fine .
enjoyed the company !
pictures of today .
enjoy !

&& yes !
whoever created EXAMS sure suck big time !!
if only ,
exams are like open book tests .
i swear i'll bring back A's for every tests/exams .
hoho !

♥

A night to Simpang

2008-03-07T18:42:00.000+08:00

spend the whole Friday afternoon at home .
met up with Farhan ❤ after his training ,
which is at night .
slack at bowl .
then proceed home .
Fira Sayang & Ain Baby wanted to go Simpang .
headed to Simpang for supper .
eat , chit-chat , laugh .
Ain Baby met Azman .
they talked like there's no tomorrow .
took cab back home at 1am .
the pictures taken otw home in the cab .
enjoy !

♥

school holiday

2008-03-06T22:19:00.000+08:00

nowadays , i'm always up early .
even though i'm tired .
ouh well .
lemme tell the story abt today .
haha !
here goes .
woke up at 10 .
was viewing Darling Ad's blog ,
when got a msg from ...
guess who ?
duh !
Fira Sayang of course .
asking me what time i wanna go school to take books .
time & place are then set .
&& poof ! off to school .
after that ,
she followed me
&& i followed her home .
we proceed to Tampines .
Farhan ❤ came ,
followed by Yong .
after making unnecessary noises ,
they then went for training .
leaving me & Fira Sayang some quiet time to study .
2 hrs of studying ,
Yan Tongs came to met Fira Sayang .
terus hilang sey lepas tu .
laa .
finally ,
Ain Baby came .
aww .
i miss you , ya know !
kecoh seii die !
walk2 .
talk2 .
met Farhan ❤ & Yong .
after that go home .
k .
the end !
short , sweet & simple .
hah !

guess who in this world is .
haha !
who else ,
if not .
MUHD REDWAN .
aka .
Wan Toyol ,
Jack .
haha !
k, crap .
sorry Jack .
sally mintak maaf .
haha !
he's complaining that i never ever did talk abt him on my blog .
take this chance to talk lar kan .
amcm Jack ?
surprise tak ?
hahah .
laa .
we can live life like Jack & Sally .
hhahah !
okay people .
you must be wondering what's up with this Jack && Sally .
ever watch or hear abt Nightmare Before Christmas .
Wan thinks i'm an angel from nightmare .
that's when this NBC thing came about .
hahah .
i know .
crap .
ehk Jack !
crap lar .
ahahah !
okay .
BYE !

P.S : I LOVE YOU MUHD FARHAN !

♥

school's such a bore !

2008-03-04T14:58:00.000+08:00

i'll update the entry on my date with Darling Ad once she pass me the pics .
hoho !

i don't know why ,
but i love talking about school .
lemme correct that .
COMPLAINT ABT SCHOOL .
haha !
Monday .
school was such a complete bore lar !
lecture in the morning .
followed by 2hrs break .
then PCA lesson .
&& another damn 3 hrs of break !
like wth !
&& it actually took me & Fira 1 and half hours ,
to figure out that we should actually get our butts out of school !
instead of waiting for a 1hr stupid performance .
like stupid sia .

by the time i reach home ,
i was completely tire out .
not because of school ,
but carry the damn beg .
heavy sia .
i swear i have no idea what i bring to school sia !
the clock strike 8.30pm ,
&& An call me .
"Be down fast !"
ah ye .
banyak kau nye fast ehk .
i've already reach down when i called him only to know he's still walking to my blk .
hmm .
geramm .
slack at 407 .
when i decide to go the damn exercise corner .
haha !
exercise lar kan .
mcm paham sia !
kk .
had fun though .
&& i sang him "More than Words" .
some boyfriend he is .
he didnt appreciate it sia .
hahah !
bloody hell you Muhd Farhan !

anyways ,
Muhd Farhan .
let's go Starbucks this weekend .
i wanna study .
&& you are going to accompany me whether you want it or not .
or you're free or not .
i dont care .

♥

wonderful day

2008-03-02T11:46:00.000+08:00

i had the most wonderful date ever with Darling Ad .
well ,
i'll post more ltr on together with the pictures !
Darling !
Love ya !

♥

saturday morning

2008-03-02T01:44:00.000+08:00

the reason why i'm up at this hour ?
well ,
you might wanna ask the stupid construction just outside my house .
stupid shit betul !

well ,
as i look into each and everyone of people i know .
how they present themselves in front of people are really different to what they are facing in life .
same goes to me .
they say ,
behind every smile ,
there's sorrow && misery .
i didnt believe that when i was much younger .
now that i'm much matured than before .
things begin to make sense .
take me as an example .
the BF always say to me ,
"please dont cry , that's not the Hafa that i know .
the Hafa that i know always has a smile on her face no matter what happens "
i guess that's part && parcel of life .
misery && sorrow comes whether you want it or not .
it's a test for your patience .

❤ ELFIRA
yes ,
i'll make sure that fantasy of ours will come true okay lil baby ?
now hush .
i never wanna see that tears in your eyes anymore .
if you ever need someone ,
i'll be 100% be there .
you can count me on that .
okay ?
we'll make it through together .
i promise you that .
i love you okay baby ?
muahxx !
<3

♥

an early entry

2008-02-29T15:57:00.000+08:00

okay well .
i didnt intend to update this blog till the weekends ,
but sitting here with the noisy grilling of the stairs outside my house ,
i doubt so i'm able to sleep .
&& i cant do much anyways .
i cant watch television nor listen to the stereo .
the only way to get the noise out of my freaking ears is to blog .
if only i could let you hear the noise ,
i bet it'll drive you crazy just as much as how it's getting on my nerves .
my mom is being a clever-head by going out && coming back once the work is done .
mother ! why didnt you ask me along ?!
i'm half dead right now !

anyways ,
school has always been a bore .
like usual .
i just dont understand why people simply love getting on our nerves .
i mean ,
if you think i'm a bitch ,
&& made nothing out of my life ,
just tell me straight .
i mean i couldnt do much once you've say it .
that's your perception of me .
instead of giving me attitudes && your f up face ,
you might wanna save that for your beloved bfs .
urrghh !
okay ,
there's WET .
she thinks she knows everything .
but all her facts are either about sex or just stupid .
don't try to talk big && pretend to know everything .
ehk ,
pergi betulkan dulu diri kau sebelum cakap org .
better still ,
gain respect from your friends first then you can come ,
&& talk to me about myself .
org bodoh mcm kau aje tinggalkan mak pasal matair bodoh kau !
next up ,
ANAK DARA TUE .
30 years old ,
&& still not married .
worst still ,
being friends with 18 year old kids .
i mean ,
i dont mind the being friends part ,
but stop acting like our age .
for god sake ,
you're 30 sia !
not 13 you know !
you once lead that life .
so yeah .
you live life once only you know .
your 18 year old life is over .
accept it .
&& if you can't stand loud voices ,
then dont be friends with an 18 year old kid .
get it ?

guess i'm done with this & the noises has stop .
wopeedo !
happy reading !
anyways .
siape makan chili , die rase pedas .
<3

♥

friends

2008-02-24T23:22:00.000+08:00

firstly
i got to stop this bad habit of mine .
saw something that is appealing to eyes ,
grab it ,
&& bring it to the cashier .
i've been doing that whenever i got money in hand .
i can't stop .
urrghh !

secondly
Sunday afternoon .
Starbucks .
Java Chocolate Chip .
&& a bunch of chaotic friends .
what could be more pleasant then that ?
Amirul with the "budak kampong" attitude .
Azhar with the non-stop disturbing me .
Syahid with the crappiness .
Titi with the "alaaa . . "
Ujirr with the non-stop talking about NS .
&& Farhan to accompany me wherever i go .
k , actually i have no idea how to describe them .
this is the best that i can go .
but my evening was a blast with this bunch !
met up with deary Fira later on under the void deck .
haha !
me && Amirul were talking non-stop about our primary school .
hahah !
kental kental .
gosh !
&& look out !
we will be rocking the Marina Stairs this Saturday .
well,
at least i hope we will .
heh !

thirdly
the shirt that i bought over at SPLIT is tight !
ouh no !
time to burn some . .
ouh wait !
burn loads of fats !
heheh !

♥

Sunday morning

2008-02-24T10:44:00.000+08:00

firstly
i'm watching MTV MADE while typing this.
well,
gotta say i learnt quite a number of things from this.
1. No matter what people think of you,
you are what you are.
2. No one && i mean no one can ever bring down your esteem,
not even your sister.
3. Another way of expressing your feelings && thoughts,
WRITE IT IN A SONG.
what/how the girl is in the show,
is the exact same as me minus the writting of songs.
i suck at it anyways.

secondly
i spend the whole day with An yesterday.
the plan was :
1. Go Vivo && grab the shades.
2. To Town for some shopping.
3. && Marina to chilala.
but it change totally.
we stayed at Vivo the whole day.
met up with Titi && Ujirr.
Ujirr going NS seii!
bye Ujirr!
anyways,
i had fun though last night.
minus the last part.
err.
guess i better not go there yet.
ouhh yeahh !
i bought myself Topshop Sweater !
pretty pretty !
:)

thirdly
To Fyera : i love you so so so much !
please don't be mad at me . <33
To Ad : i love you darling . <3
To Shasha : i'm so so sorry about yesterday .
don't hold any grudges towards me okay ? <3
To Titi : lu kecoh lar semalam . haha !
gua cinta sama lu ! <33
To Farhan : please don't start any more shits .
please . enough already okay ?
i love you very much ! <333

♥

hypocrites, no hypocrites

2008-02-22T22:52:00.000+08:00

firstly
8.30am in Boon Lay.
what the was i thinking?!
Mdm Jenny Yeo's fault.
her so-called field-trip require us to be at Boon Lay at 8am regardless where you stay.
and we have to TAKE THE DAMN PUBLIC TRANSPORT.
Hafa go public seii.
k anyways,
the pictures will be up as soon as Fira pass me the pics.
:)

secondly
i don't know if we both notice this.
both of us, YOU & ME.
we are hypocrites.
you know it's the truth.
i do admit that i was a hypocrite.
but if possible,
i wanna start all over again.
i'm sincere in being your friend.
you're a real nice friend that i can count on.
so,
TRUCE?

thirdly
I AM ONE HELLA HAPPY GIRL RIGHT NOW!
ahaha.
PAYDAY PAYDAY PAYDAY!
wheee`

♥

de-stress

2008-02-20T17:19:00.000+08:00

✓ yet another day in school.
again, just a bore.
i'm beginning to get sick & tired of school.
test one after another.
give it a break.
i'm tired of studying (which sometimes i dont actually study)
haha!
so i'm done with PCA test & the phase test.
up next, BIO test 2!
follow by EXAMS!
the pressure is there sia!

✓ i swear i wanna go Sentosa.
hahah!
anyone wanna go?
urggh!
long time sei didnt go Sentosa.
haha!
i'm out of ideas.

✓ i had this very weird weird conversation with Fucknut!
haha!
i swear we never talked like this before.
even after 5 years of friendship,
hahaha.
HE THINKS IM HOT!
hahaha.
crap sia this guy.
what was he thinkiing?!
ahaha!
Fariz!
you got to stop your crapiness.
for once,
i'm all blushed while having this conversation.
hah!

✓ everytime i read about it,
my heart go crazy.
you might not mention names.
but i know who you're referring to.
try imagining yourself in my position.
tell me.
how would you feel?
trust me,
i feel more worst than that.
hais.
i need you to stop please.
cause eventually,
things will get worst between me & him.
:(

[ ❤ Darling Ad & Me ]

p.s: can i have Farhan forever?
heh!

♥

i'm blessed

2008-02-19T22:21:00.000+08:00

friends.
there are good & bad ones.
& i'm blessed with good beautiful friends.
mummy always says,
"kau ingat kawan kau tu semua boleh kasi kau duit semua pe?!"
well,
she got a point.
but from them,
i gain confidence & respect.
that's important too.
am i right?
god knows how much i love all you guys.
be it friends or foe.
I LOVE YOU ALL LAR!
muahxx!
<3

Ad Darling!!
heh!
we finally met!
hoho!
& i want the photo okay?
yipee!
hoho!
laa.
i love you k?
muahxx!

♥

my dearest sister

2008-02-18T22:40:00.000+08:00

hey sister!
if you were to come across this blog,
read this.

if sharing things with your lil sis is such a big crime,
then report it to the police.
if sharing things with your lil sis is such a nuisance,
well, guess what?!
i don't really care.
by all means,
take it back.
yes, i am rude to my parents.
but what you didnt know,
i would cry myself to sleep every single time.
that explains the swollen eyes.
& not because i fought with Farhan.
yes, turning 18 is such a big deal to me.
not to smoke, drink & club legally
but to get my license as soon as possible.
i can't stand being in the house with everyone ganging up against me.
especially you, sis!
why?
why is it so hard to treat me like a little sister?
i tried to do every single thing i could to communicate with you.
but it's either you ignore me or put up your freaking stuck up face.
& i'm sorry that i didn't help out with the chores.
& i'm sorry your circle of friends arent as big as mine.
& i'm sorry i was bought up into this family.
if i was being a freaking bitch,
i'd do what Abang do.
run away from home.
not wanting to school.
but i'm still here.
bursting my ass out trying to get good grades.
i love you.
i swear.
but you got to stop treating me like a stranger.
i'm your little sister, for heaven sake!

♥

problems

2008-02-18T17:49:00.000+08:00

as i sit my butt here on this chair,
my mind start to wonder.
"why is my family still treating me like a kid?"
"why my sister can do that & i can't?"
"why am i the only one in this family that has too many wrongdoing?"
"why is everyone & i mean everyone in this family ganging up against me?"
you see,
it's been almost a week now
& none of my family members actually did talk to me.
am i a ghost that is supposed to be ignored?
why?
just why me?
tell me mummy. please.
dont just keep it away from me.
cause i will never learn from silence.
hais.

yet another thing come to mind.
this relationship of ours, Farhan.
what are we heading for?
i swear you were nothing like before.
the insecurity is taking over me.
you said you love me but it takes action to actually make someone knows.
everytime i mentioned her name,
you'll get furious.
but there's something in me telling that,
a small portion of you still thinks of her.
what i said might not be true.
no one knows the truth except for you.
i'll really appreciate it if you were to tell me the truth.
that's all i'm asking for.
please.
i'm begging you.
i can't help but cry deep inside.
it's tearing me apart.
you're important to me.
but i wouldnt want such things ruin my life nor yours.
today might be our first anniversary.
but it's never too late to confess.

SCHOOL!
another irritating thing in my life.
i know how important this is to my whole family.
plus to my life too.
being stressed up about school is a normal thing.
but try having no support from your family at all.
they want me to get into this course.
but when i'm out doing projects & study,
they accuse me of going out WITH GUYS!
like wth!
hais.

problems.
one after another.

♥

I'm a GIVER

2008-02-17T22:23:00.000+08:00

i have no idea why but my mum seems to be giving me this cold shoulder this few days.
i wonder what wrong did i ever do?
i mean i do need my freedom.
why is she bugging me so much?
that's just i need from her after what i've achieve for myself.
hais.

okay.
so today i'm suppose to study for the damn PCA test tmr.
the plan was like this.
meet Fira at 4pm at blk 415.
study till night.
& go home.
BUT somehow the plan change totally.
the meeting was drag till 5.
obviously i'm the one being the late one.
ahaha!
when i reach the blk,
Fira was quite furious.
hoho.
sorry darling.
heh!
then she say this,
"Aku mcm takde mood ar nak belajar. Yok pergi Parkway!"
me, being another lazy one say YES to it.
hahah!
she followed me back home and change clothes.
you see, i saw damn slack lar kan.
haha!
then we proceed to PP.
we took the FREEshutter bus.
haha!
lokek punya orang!
haha.

from one shop to another we went.
& after all that, we decide to fill our stomach with Pastamania.
haha!
eat like nobody business despite there's Pastamania Mats.
haha!
we proceed back to Bedok right after.
met up with An then Yan & Wan.
hahaha!
wah! sebelum Yan timbul, Fira nye boring.
Yan timbul je, energy semua ade.
hahaha.
Fira Fira.

tomorrow's Monday.
school day & yet another boring day of the week.
hais.
will update how school's tmr alright?
muahxx muahxx

♥

A Wonderful day

2008-02-17T00:31:00.000+08:00

i woke up as early as 9 lar kan today.
boring boring.
i left the house at 3.30.
oppss.
Hafa lambat lagi lar kan.
haha!
met Khairul, Titi & Munzir.
then then meet Nurul.
die bawak anak die sekali lar kan.
hahah!

[ ❤ Nurul, Titi & Hafa ]

busybody follow them go do their project.
hah!
head to Marina stairs & met up with An, Ayid & Ahmad.
laa.
mcm handsome plk budak-budak tu.
hahha!
kk.
chilala at the stairs & watch the Chingay Parade.
fuuh!
Wicked Aura seii perform.
followed by a group of Harley Davidson riders, some oldies cars & Lamborghini!!
aiseii!
there's like 6 cars.
powerr laa!
hahah.
& so the day turn to night.

[ ❤ My LOVEs ]

[ ❤ Pretty Pretty ]

then suddenly!
F1 cars vroom pass!!
fuuh!!
fall in lup lar!
pretty pretty!
heh!
i LOVE!
haha!
we were then joined by Fira & Yan.
snap snap again.

[ ❤❤ Gorgeous Girls ]

go to the geylang booth.
kick some balls.
hahah.
kental kental.
see fireworks.
then ride the Top Gun again lar kan.
hahaha.
this time with Fira & Yan.
laa.
lepas tu due2 nak muntah.
haha.
went back to Marina stairs.
banyak sgt lar matrep-s!
RIMAS!
after that, GO HOME!
haha.
An keep on asking for COITUS!
irritating!
hahahaha.

i LOVE you lar FARHAN!
Muahxx Muahxx

♥

Its time to bid adieu for the day.

2008-02-16T15:54:00.000+08:00

[❤ MUHD FARHAN ❤]

❤My Baby
Things haven't been going well before.
We would fight every single day.
You'd get hell from me before we end our late phonecalls.
& till one day, i decide to end everything that we had.
For one month, you were on your own without me in your life.
Life was enjoyable for you, wans't it?
But at the same time, you were hurt.
Those suffering ended the moment i step back into your life suddenly.
It's funny how i treat you now is way different than the old times.
You were shocked too right by my changes.
Be it good or bad, what matter is that we can lean on each other whenever we need support.
In just 2 days, i'll be your first.
Ouh wait, i'm already am the first.
it's a whole new level now.
Do take good care of me.
Cause you'll be in the good hands of me, Tell your mum that.
I love you.
& nothing can change that.

♥♥

OLD blog, NEW skin

2008-02-16T13:31:00.000+08:00

so, i've made a makeover for my blog.
hah!
and so, i woke up late for school ehk today?
laa.
haha!
i can't wake up seii!
i was practically half dead & dragging myself to school.
but right after break, i was super super hyper lar kan!
hahaha!
hmm. GERAM!
then get all stress up over BIO assignments.
wah wah!
lepas bio, ape lagi.
BALIK & TIDUR.
haha!

i wanna talk about this particular someone.

it's strange how we actually know each other.
but let's not get to there.
heh!
i swear i love this girl eversince we know each other.
ahaha.
mcm dah kenal lamer lar gitu kan.
alaa.
haha!
well, i used to hate this girl ( sorry my darling!)
:D
but things are cool now!
right Ad sygg?
hhehe.
fyi, her name is NURADAWIYAH.
haha!

& Ad Dear, try to find me in school okay?
hehe!
I wish you best of luck with Fahmy okay?
& ouh! did i ever mention you guys look really really SWEET together?
yes you do!!
heheeh.
muahxx muahxx!

♥

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY

2008-02-14T21:41:00.000+08:00

Valentine's Day.
haha!
the day start out pretty bore!
hmph!
since Fira left school early, i got Gegerl to be my date in school!
haha!

[Nur Farhan, my Valentine's date in school!]

okay.
after school rush home then get ready for the real v.day date.
laa.
si An pulak nak step romantic kan.
hahaha.
he gave me this small little bear with a heart-shape pillow.
in the bag, there's a card (which he didnt wrote, the friend instead)
& chocolates with our name on it.
alaa ar kan!
haha!

[The Chocolate ❤]

then we head for CityHall with Syahid & Ahmad since Geylang United got a game booth there.
so, after they set up, they show off their skills.
laa.
last last, Hafa diajar bagaimane hendak tendang bola dgn betul.
ahaha!
so, An owe me 200 bucks cause i got the ball into 25points slot!
hhahah.

[Farhan, Syahid & Ahmad]

[He's trying to show off his skills]

[❤ That's my man!]

laa.
Hafa mcm byk story gitu!
hah!
after the close the booth, we went on this STUPID ride.
i swear i'm never ever gonna take the ride again.
the pressure was so heavy that i left redness on my shoulder lar kan!
ish!
haha.
seram!
go check out yourself ar the ride.
it's near the esplanade there.
GO GO!
haha!

♥