and it starts with..

Monday, February 18, 2008

as i sit my butt here on this chair,
my mind start to wonder.
"why is my family still treating me like a kid?"
"why my sister can do that & i can't?"
"why am i the only one in this family that has too many wrongdoing?"
"why is everyone & i mean everyone in this family ganging up against me?"
you see,
it's been almost a week now
& none of my family members actually did talk to me.
am i a ghost that is supposed to be ignored?
why?
just why me?
tell me mummy. please.
dont just keep it away from me.
cause i will never learn from silence.
hais.

yet another thing come to mind.
this relationship of ours, Farhan.
what are we heading for?
i swear you were nothing like before.
the insecurity is taking over me.
you said you love me but it takes action to actually make someone knows.
everytime i mentioned her name,
you'll get furious.
but there's something in me telling that,
a small portion of you still thinks of her.
what i said might not be true.
no one knows the truth except for you.
i'll really appreciate it if you were to tell me the truth.
that's all i'm asking for.
please.
i'm begging you.
i can't help but cry deep inside.
it's tearing me apart.
you're important to me.
but i wouldnt want such things ruin my life nor yours.
today might be our first anniversary.
but it's never too late to confess.

SCHOOL!
another irritating thing in my life.
i know how important this is to my whole family.
plus to my life too.
being stressed up about school is a normal thing.
but try having no support from your family at all.
they want me to get into this course.
but when i'm out doing projects & study,
they accuse me of going out WITH GUYS!
like wth!
hais.

problems.
one after another.

♥

5:49 PM xoxo, HAFA