and it starts with..

Friday, April 11, 2008

friendster , MSN , blog .
my normal routine .
while waiting for dearest boyfriend ,
i decided to blog hopping .
& found myself in Erma's LJ .
it's funny seeing other people being so much in love ,
& me being happy about it .
but what is actually happening to me ?
yes , i do love my boyfriend .
no doubt about that .
but my boyfriend aint like any other boyfriend .
he dont msg me in the middle of the day saying "i love you" .
he dont surprise me with gift .
(maybe because it always slip out of his mouth )
he dont plan romantic date .
& he wouldnt even take a day off from soccer training to spend time with me .
unless he's being forced to .
its always me who do the msg-ing first .
im always buying his stuff .
sweater , shoes , you name it .
& im always the one asking him if he wants to spend time .
i dont know what else to do .
im tired of being the one to do all these stuff .
please baby ,
for once have the initiative to do all that .
but no matter how hard i try to b mad at you about this ,
my mind will eventually change to other stuff .
thinking ,
"how were you like when you were with her ?"
im still not over it .
call me whatever .
but each time i step in Cineleisure ,
my eyes turn watery .
yes , i know you & her are over .
i know youre happy with me ,
& she's happy with him .
but memories .
it's hard to erase .
maybe its my fault .
i dont blame anyone but myself .
why did i let all these happen ?

nevertheless ,
i need you start treating me like a real women .
a human being with feelings .
im sorry i hurt you .
im sorry im being unfair to you .
im truly deeply am .
but please change your way .
that's all im asking .
i love you too much .
wouldnt trade you for anything .

♥

3:39 PM xoxo, HAFA